Sending love and support. I found great support and healing in therapy. I could process my absue and hurt in a safe, professional and guided environment. I understand that this may not be for you; but I am sharing my healing process. I dare say that this maybe a lifelong undertaking; but I feel you will recover. There are some very nasty and cruel people in the world and I am sorry you had to suffer at the hands of one of these people. Reclaim you, and your life.